She picked her words carefully as if she was choosing tomatoes from a pile of yesterday’s produce.
The talk was to tell us about the uncounted
I am the girl with the apple.
Bring sensitivity to criminalized bodies, she was saying
I am the one digging through my knapsack, making a ruckus.
But how do you un-stitch politics from data collection?, someone was asking.
I am the girl who took a second bite during the Q & A session.
“That’s an interesting question.”
Apple juice is dribbling down my chin, down the sides of my fingers.
“Funders have mandates.”
“Funders have machetes?”
Someone glances over, my third bite
bit around the orbit
made a last ledge right on the spine, near the core.
Across from me on the train this morning,
I watched a woman fall asleep,
seated and swaying.
And I could tell, she was used to this
— knowing how not to
let her head rest against a stranger’s shoulders
even as it bends towards it.
Blue fingers and a slanted blood red dress
I weave through the tangled cracks
which knot the sidewalks.
My bone and skin are on fire
as it lands on rivers of stone.
I dreamt I was pregnant. And pleased.
I dreamt I was roasting live fish by the ocean, against a violent and bloody sun. The fish turns dark and charred inside the fire and I place it with great care on my plate. The fish writhe and change into earthworms which refuse to die. They try to escape my plate, my fork, the cave of my mouth where I thrust them in anyway.
And slurp them like slippery, electric noodles. I have question marks hanging from my mouth.
Dreams need to be diagrammed
The bend of my plant towards the light
It smelled like sun baked
feet. Strewn across the yard
were pieces of car tire rubber,
marking the empty backyard.
As if some un-imaginable demon had
let out its rage through the underbelly of automobiles.
Rigged border wars
Tires and splinters
grate fired coal
feet and sun eat blood,